The Positive attitude

I want to be positive, but somehow from time to time I stray from a positive thought to a negative one. I think I am positive/inspirational blog obsessed. They get me pumped up for a couple of days and then I am down in the dumps again.

Soo…. Look inside yourself what do you see???

Honestly, I don’t know. I am a product of my environment and my environment is all mixed up. There are so many things that I want to do with my life… become a clothing designer, get in better shape, style photographs, write novels, write poetry, write music, sing and oh so much more. It’s all to overwhelming for me.

I think I need to stay away from all these positive blogs because all I want to do is read them, but when it comes down to it I never implement the lessons in my life. I honestly think I read so much inspirational articles that by now I should know how to be a positive person. So here is me getting off my ass and trying to do something about this “sadness.”

I have always known what my problem was… starting many projects and never finishing them. I become burnt out like a candle in the wind. I have read so many articles saying it was a bad idea, but being myself I wanted to believe I was different and a super duper human… Sadly, I found out I am not (okay I always knew I wasn’t one)

So here is me setting some of my interests aside for now. I need to focus.

Here is the game plan for March:::

1. Get into shape like whoa

—Run a little bit everyday and then eventually increase the time and speed

—I also want to create a workout routine after my running routine is undercontrol

2. Keep playing guitar

—I have been neglecting playing because of work and because the instrumental pieces have gotten harder for me to play and understand.

I want to transform myself. I’m tired of being shy, always being in the shadows and not letting my personality shine through, but it’s hard and scary,. I need help

I am going to transform and become my invisioned alter ego…. Charlée Mary

The Ballad of the Light Temptress

Goddess of Light, originally uploaded by _CherryBlossom_.

The Ballad of the Light Temptress

Refrain
Your luminosity lures me
Sweetly beckons forward
A seductive siren you are
You strike the precise chords

(i)
Sailing the tar colored heavens
A solo sailor was I
And cautiously soaring slowly
Unknowing where hell could lie

(ii)
Then out of nowhere you emerge
A goddess of mercy
Fair in beauty before my eyes
Any man could agree

(refrain)

(iii)
I draw closer, closer, closer
Enchanted by the song
No man could hold me back from you
Your mantra is so strong

(iv)
Buzzing surrounding all around
There’s chaos, confusion
Causing cacophony with all
Was light an illusion?

(refrain)

(v)
Your presence is warm— comforting
The heat flows through my veins
Addictive, bruised and needing more
Shackled down in your chain s

(vi)
Now electrifying pleasure
Following other flies
Light to dimness, shadows around
Charon meets me, I die

(refrain)

Day 6

The Ballad of the Sandman

Enter Sandman, originally uploaded by Nictalopen.

The Ballad of the Sandman

Refrain
The Sandman draws closer for sleep
Carefully placing dreams
Into the eyes of resting souls
Where imaginings gleam

(i)
“Please, go to sleep little children
The sunlight now slumbers.”
Then in the death of night, people
Lie down in great numbers.

(ii)
Part of the world is in shadows
Where wickedness could dwell
And somehow the nightlight scares them
So we then can sleep well

(refrain)

(iii)
The sandman comes with a filled sack
Packed with unique visions
With specific lessons for life
For reality’s decisions

(iv)
Illusions of nightmares and dreams
Fantasies come alive
With emotional anarchy
Language can not describe

(refrain)

(v)
Tick-tock, tick-tock, time elapses
Light penetrates our sleep
And all stories come to an end
With instructions to keep

(vi)
The tunnel’s push toward the new day
Marks a new resurgence
Sunshine graces the next day and
Makes a fresh emergence

(refrain)

Day 5

The Ballad of a Shy Girl

SHY VENOM, originally uploaded by VonMurr.

The Ballad of a Shy Girl

Refrain
She always wanted to be seen
But fate seemed to say no
She struggled to get out of fear
‘Cause in it was great woe

(i)
This girl named Abigail Johnson
Was born to extraverts
That talked until their tongue got sore
For her, each day got worse

(ii)
From middle school until high school
Invisible was she
Forgotten by her peers and teachers
‘Cause she was not gutsy

(refrain)

(iii)
Transitioning forward, onward
In college to succeed
And in classes still a mute mouse
Fear unconquered indeed

(iv)
She was a girlfriend to a guy
He also forgot her
Ditched and cheated, she was alone
Change soon had to occur

(refrain)

(v)
After him Abby had enough
And made him leaver her life
Abuse was not for this woman
What he did was not right

(vi)
No longer to be steeped upon
And shinning in the light
Abigail was no longer sad
Her life’s a grand delight

(refrain)

Day 4

The Ballad of Love

Love XOXO, originally uploaded by Pink Sherbet Photography.

Refrain:
Around before the dawn of time
And there until the end
Forever, love is all we need
Open your heart and send
(i)
Before the world’s great creation
Before the stars shone bright
Love was the unifying force
And exists in plain sight

(ii)
Once the particles exploded
This love could now be seen
Stored among its many beings
It’s an ongoing stream

(refrain)

(iii)
Mother and father together
And come as one with love
Then in nine months they are waiting
For someone else to love

(iv)
From children until we are dead
We build relationships
That evolves into little gifts
Those beloved friendships

(refrain)

(v)
There will be times when Love meets Hate
A force blinded of course
By the horrid worldly evils,
But Love is a grand force.

(vi)
Love will overwhelm Hate with light
Soon Hate can not refuse
To submit to the strength of Love.
With Love no one can lose.

Day 3

The Ballad of Super Mario Galaxy

Super Mario Galaxy, originally uploaded by gR.-.

Refrain:
All alone and want to have fun
Wii-mote control in hand
Please strap-on before I’ve begun
To win it would to grand

(i)
Super Mario Galaxy
I want to beat this game
Role Play a bee would be waxy
Be a spring — hard I claim

(ii)
Mario learns to swim and fly
Races self and bullies
Uses tools to make villains cry
Purpose — to beat bullies

(Refrain)

(iii)
I want to capture those star bits
Fifty for a one-up
Shiny gold coin, got to have it
They help his health go up

(iv)
Beware of Boss King Kaliente,
Major Burrows — pound him,
Bowser Junior you need to slay,
And blow up Boss Kingpin

(Refrain)

(v)
Mario does this for his one
His special one he loves
Princess Peach is his hunnybun
He needs to save his dove

(vi)
From the grips of evil Bowser
Goodness will soon prevail
Mario will defeat Bowser
That’s the end of the tale

…. it’s not really in iambic meter, but hey I tried.

This is day one of my ballad poetry.

Ballad

I have moved on from Acrostic into Ballad poetry.

What is Ballad poetry? In simple terms, a tale written in simplicity. They can be written in iambic tetrameter/trimeter with last words of second and fourth lines rhyming.

What is my favorite ballad? Well The Ballad of Big Poppa and Diamond Girl of course. teheheh

Guitar

Rock n Rock Princess, originally uploaded by Heather Louise Photography.

Gliding along the strings
Ubiquitous vibrations occur.
Incandescent love created
Touching my heart and soul.
A melody preformed with each stroke
Reminding the world of what truly matters.

–written January 9, 2008
Acrostic poetry Day 7.

France

Effiel Tower 2007 paris, originally uploaded by Snapper 310.

France

Fly to fashion week, but
Remember to visit the sites
Antoinette, Marie’s guillotine over there
Napoleon’s monuments places everywhere
Come to the Louvre and don’t forget to ascend the
Eiffel Tower.

-written 01/03/2009
Acrostic poetry Day 6.

Puppy?

Adoptable Puppies / SpokanimalCARE, originally uploaded by Terry Bain.

Please
U
Playful
Puppy,
Yelp, bow wow and woof for me????

A playful, cute poem. Something I would probably write if I were sayyyy 4 years old.

Day 5 Acrostic